Twilight Pondering

     While lying awake in bed in the middle of the night, one's mind can begin to wander. Early this morning after waking and being unable to go back to sleep I caught myself wondering if my wife and I should give up. 

     We've been trying to conceive for over two years with no hint of a baby in the future, we're not getting any younger (we'll be pushing 50 by the time we have a child and he or she graduates high school) and time is slowly running out for my wife (the older a woman gets the harder pregnancy can be on her body and the more unsafe it can be for the baby).We've prayed for a child, but we also pray to be within God's will. Together we've discussed the possibility that it may not be God's will that we have a baby (that is a tough pill to swallow).

     In Psalms 37:4 we are told to "Delight yourself in the Lord; and He will give you the desires of your heart." There are two different perspectives that you can see this scripture from. You can see this as a promise of fulfillment (God will give you what you ask for if you delight yourself in Him) or as guidance (if you delight yourself in Him, He will tell you what your desires should be). Truth can be seen from both angles.

     So what does this mean for us? It means that we will keep trying until God has lead us in a different direction or until we have a baby. I thank God for his direction and the peace that He brings when we ask for comfort.

-Him